Matt and I survived the creepy house - but not without
a lot of lack of sleep. I think we were up until 5am just
huddled on the couch, half delirious, half watching
the unplugged tv to see if it would come back on.
Mom has found out about a few things and is coming down on me hard. She wrote me an email about how she cannot forgive herself for not being a better mother and about how she cannot support my modeling career any longer (she really never did to begin with)...... I also keep running into photographers who are assholes.... "Pout like someone told you to read a book this year..." Or that one photographer who just kept calling me Model.... "Model go over there, Model turn around, Model put on this hat..." "I have a name...could you call me by it?" "No, I would rather not." "Ok, then I am leaving..." "That is fine, Model." It makes you second guess if this is really what I should be doing with my life.....
I got to shoot with Dee from Flutterby Studios in Toledo today - it was a nice day off from a very crazy schedule - Dee made chicken feta burgers for lunch.. Jessika from Brokendollz came over from Akron... minus the fact that Dee would not let us get naked for her camera, Jes and I had a really great day - Nothing like spending the entire day with a bunch of half naked, hot girls..
Matt and I are hanging out in Detroit Michigan - I have less than a week to figure out what I am doing once this trip comes full circle....... One thing is for sure, I cannot possibly go home and deal with my mother more than a week. She cries and she tells me how horrible modeling is and she begs me to go to school - I cannot deal with that. Just cannot. I have things that I want to do with my life, right now, at this point and time... it is not what she wants and it is not what a lot of people may want, but it is what I want..... all I wanted was two weeks off, back home at the cabin, with my cat, with some hot chocolate, without all the drama - and that it totally gone. So now what to do, eh?
I could bitch forever about this..... but it is pointless and who in their right mind would want to read something like that.