I love words. This morning, after re-reading a few of my previous posts, I decided that I need to work on broadening my vocabulary away from "awesome," "lovely,".... Perhaps search for some new compelling new rhetoric wrap around my vocal cords.. words like, "factitious" or "unbeknownst" or perhaps "erroneous zonas"... Since I am no longer spending three hours a day on MM,
I have made a New Years Resolution to browse my Thesaurus for at least 30 minutes a day... Lets hope that in the next few months, I can do you better than, "awesome" eh?
While I was in Cleveland last week, I wrote this great long blog entry about all the things happening out there.... my feelings..... personal stuff like that. About six paragraphs in... my computer crashed.... Guess what you need to know is that I fucking miss my ex-boyfriend... I miss him. I miss his fuzzy face. I miss the way that we fit into bed together... I miss stupid things like how he reads his comics that I cannot figure out why they are funny but he laughs and it is cute. And all our personal jokes that no one outside us would understand. And how he has these huge arms that can wrap around me almost twice.... How he fills this emotional void with invisible arms that can wrap around that void.... like twice.... He is one of my best friends. Even now.... I miss him so much when he is not around. Should I persue life in Cleveland for the winter - or move down to Austin to start a new life and hope he follows sometime?
I just do not know. I want both my ex and I want Austin - together.. I promise I will not turn this into some kind of gushing girly-blog.
I just do not know. I want both my ex and I want Austin - together.. I promise I will not turn this into some kind of gushing girly-blog. Managed to get some things done this week - like tomorrow I will be starting bartending classes here in Syracuse.... 5-10:30pm, four days a week.... all made possible by NYS Educational Department. Planning on starting a DeviantArt page to cope with the loss of my ModelMayhem site.... While I do not need to model, I do need art in my life.
6 comments:
I wouldn't punch a girl in my bed if she said ""Oh god, that was SO awesome"....unless she turned out to be a man...then I'd punch us both.
Bartending classes? That was my favorite class. Remember your speed rack...
Pigs-in-a-blanket thingies... thought you didn't like hotdogs?
Exquisite, phenomenal photos...and on my B-day!
You can use those words? :)
Lots of questions, lots of nice pics, I like nr2 from top best!
The point is quite clear what YOU want,
what is it that he wants, that might in that case just be as important.....
AND What does Your heart say?
Ever so pleased to find You were not so shocked by some futurous aspects of bartendering in Austin to abandon the whole thing. ( Never really thought You would!)
Appreciate very much taking the basic lessons first! Good luck!
As some advanced training, You are welcomed to visit and train 6 or more 1-liter beer mugs in each hand ! eventually! Bavarians are crazy!
As in my experience, I decided in the past not to give up the dream for a person, but follow my heart and pursue the dream( which I did) and now, some years later meeting again on somewhat changed premises.... to be strongly recommended!
Outcome not logically predictable....
And so thrilling!!
Ever notice, the computer ALWAYS goes down at the wrong time? Fate, coincidence, rotten luck. Its like it knows. Its always the little things in relationships that mean the most. Its those things that make it special, & you end up missing the most. How many weeks is your bartending class? As one, welcome to the brother/sisterhood. May all your glasses be clean, and the tips big.
Jessica, if I kidnapped you, not only would I have a ton of trouble come down on me, I would have no one to talk to. Kinda hard to talk to someone when they are bound & gagged. Like I said, the shirt screamed you. Enjoy.
Bartending, eh? One thing my boss taught me was that bartending is 20% knowledge and 80% personality. It's pretty close to the mark. Hope you're doing well!
Good luck with the Bartending Classes. And with the DA site as well. DA isn't a bad spot on the web. You may want to check out Wetcanvas too, if you like art.
How is the break from modeling going? I hope that you find your path. Once you get off, it can be hard battle to get back.
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