Monday, February 14, 2011

God vs the Carnivore

Sitting in Atlanta Airport, I ran into a very attractive guy, about my age, from Memphis. He opened up the conversation by commenting on how icecream tastes so much better in an overcrowded airport (to which, I agreed, Indeed!...). He, then, began talking about the Ministry. And while I believe in a "God"..... Organized religion makes me nervous... I am not against it. But Christianity killed millions of people - Far more than any war. It reigned terribly.... I cannot imagine a God supporting something like that.... I just cannot....

For those of you who go to church and you have a healthy relationship with God! - Please - Understand, I am happy for you.... Anything that effects your life positively.... is a great and wonderful thing....

Usually, at an airport, when someone asks, "What do you do?" - I amuse myself by avoiding the "Nude Modeling" conversation - I choose a deep nagging question to chat about (Airport people are my favorite fortune cookies!).... Or I choose a time in my life that made me feel alive and we talk about it, like it just happened... It puts me in a fantastic mood.... I love chatting about Guatemala, traveling through Utah in a mudslide, or starving in the Florida Keys with Matthew....

For some reason, in this particular instance, when the Religious guy from Memphis asked me, "What do you Do?" ... I answered honestly... "I am nude model... just got back from DC." And, while clearing his throat, he asked, "Oh, well how does that make you feel?" And I said, "It makes me feel good - When I work with honest, wonderful people - I love it a lot" And he said, "...But how does it feel knowing that you Help to objectify women in the porn industry?"..... Defensively.... I wanted to say something nasty, something terrible and shocking....

But, in the 20 seconds the conversation happened, I could not help but relate this conversation to the Vegetarian/ Carnivore dilemma I run into all the time...... I am a Vegetarian and when I tell a Carnivore that I am a Vegetarian, the first thing they do is they get defensive and they want to say something ridiculous and hurtful... like, "Cows are food, not friends." or "I love vegetables, as long as they come with a big juicy steak... blah blah blah".... It drives me nuts! You want to eat meat!? Whatever - someday I will probably eat meat too..... But being hurtful, for no reason, is just pathetic.....

Defensively, what I wanted to say to him was.... "I do not believe in your Religion." - I wanted to tell him, "Organized Religion sucks and it killed thousands more people than it Saved" - I *really* wanted to make terribly bad Zombie Jesus jokes, but I could not... Nor, could I be rude or walk away..... So, I sat there. Listening to him. Enthralled. Watching his eyes light up - Passionate about everything he said..... He even downloaded sermons onto my Macbook... It was a beautiful thing.....

All, I am trying to say is.... If you run into someone, who really believes in something, and it positively affects their life.... (whatever the 'something' happens to be) - Do not push your judgements onto them - Do not hurt them... Listen to them talk.... Can you feel their soul burn to tell you something.... I wish I was a passionate Vegan. Or I loved my religion so much, I wanted to tell everyone about it. I wish had that much passion for something.... Passion is a powerful thing....

Anyways - to follow this post up!? Here are some almost naked photos of me.... :  ) *hugs*