
..... whether to laugh or cry.
I will go with cry....
You all know my current financial state (which is non-existent, I have no money at all right now... none, zip,
nada) - Desperate to pay my bills this month - I put together a last minute trip to Chicago. Figured - visit some friends and make a little money modeling. A good buddy in Alabama sent me a few dollars to help me get to the city (very helpful - thank you so much!) - Just enough money to cover gas and tolls... I packed the car, started driving
westward...
Life was just swell!!..... Driving through Indiana. Listening to
Neko Case - singing some Jenny Lewis. Top down, sixty degrees out, sunshine all over the place.... A brilliant afternoon! Glorious afternoon! Great day for a drive!

....And then...... The Mustang's battery light on switched on.
And then the car began to overheat...
And then it just stopped moving - stopped working...
Right there. Somewhere near mile-marker 88 in
Indi-fucking-
ana.... my car up-n-died on the side of the road.
Dialed 411. Triple A "Do you recognize any
definitive landmarks that will help our driver locate you?" "Well,
hmmmm.... cows. I see cows! And I see geese. A few of the geese are hanging out with a white colored duck... they are just inside of a red barn" "Well - lets see - that does not help much" "Yea, sorry - This is hopeless - It is Indiana."

What the hell, right? I am upset. First off, I love my car and I do not like when it has to go to the shop. That car is my only form of escape - I talk to it when I am alone (yes, I talk to my car - I am totally crazy.
You are reading a crazy-lady's blog - what is worse? Me for being the car-talking
craz-
ee or you for reading about it?) Still broke - as a goat - living on a farm in Indiana. The tow truck guy dropped me off at a Motel 6. I chatted with the lady at the front desk for a long time... Guess her car had kicked the bucket the week before and she has been down-and-out too. Without asking, she just gave me a room for $20 flat. While I do not listen to Joan Osborne all that often, I s

till cannot help but wonder, "What if God was one of us?"... Think about it......because, I mean, if Lady at the Front Desk was God helping a girl out - I just got to give God a bear-hug and a half eaten bag of cheese-its!
Had to cancel my shoots for tomorrow morning - I NEEDED those shoots. Needed them. Fucking needed them. Was counting on them. While one of the photographers rescheduled - the other one informed me that "Next to dead grandmas stories, car excuses are most overused cliche excuses to exist" He went on to tell me that he was
disappointed in me, That he would never consider rescheduling with me.. blah blah blah. I offered to send him photos of my car - but he went on to tell me to stick things where the sun does not shine......

I take it personally when someone say that they are disappointed in me....
Even when it is not my fault....
Scared about tomorrow. This entire situation is just screwed up - Stuck at a motel 6 in a bad part of town - no car - not even sure where they took my car, they gave me a business card and told me to call in the morning - I left my cell phone charger in Ohio - I do not know anyone in Indiana..... I wish I had someone to hug.... maybe I will go read the second Twilight novel to get out of reality for a bit.
Photos: Again, Mr Mike Long out of Portland OR - rocking some great photos....