California Dreaming (on such a winter's day)

Sitting in one place again, spending three weeks out of the month doing absolutely nothing - I am bored out of my mind. B-o-r-e-d! You knew, it was going to happen.

 Every morning I wake up and gaze helplessly at the snow outside our window, thinking, "Today I will go out and I will get a job!"..... Which is swiftly followed by the counter-argument.... "Why get a job? You do not need one, you could model....." - I can come up with a million ideas as to why getting a regular job would be beneficial - including things such as: taxes, new skill-sets, co-workers, a job I can discuss over the dinnertable. I also have a million and ten excuses as to why it is a completely horrific idea. The loss of freedom is most prominent - I realize that someday I will have to get another job..... but maybe now is not the time for one? I am not sure... 

 All I know is that stepping away from a 24/7 life of travel-modeling around the country..... has done me well. For awhile there, I was starting to hate modeling. I like that I am finding myself again. It does not define, alone, who I am.... My life is no longer scheduled on a spreadsheet (well, actually that is not true, I still love my daily spreadsheet...ha)....

Travel-wise, I have always loved traveling and I cannot wait for LA on the 22nd!!! This trip is so needed, cannot even begin to tell you. Decided that I am going to take a day or two off, drive up the coast for awhile. To me, there is nothing more enjoyable than that coastline - the cliffs, the seaside.... on the side of the world where the sun sets over the water.... I only wish I was driving it in my own car.... I might bring my rental back that day and pick up a convertible for the trip.... Cannot imagine doing a ride like that without the sky and sunshine over me...

Work for LA. Got hired by Danni.com - which is owned by Penthouse.... not shooting any explicit stuff. They are working within comfort zone, which I very much appreciate.... Still cannot believe a company like that would hire me. They are such a huge name. Not to mention, the shoot pays extremely well. Also! I just got published (thanks to sexy-face Larry Bradby) in the new No 45 Marquis Magazine, a European Fetish/Fashion magazine - On the same pages as Kumi Monster and Angela Ryan! Still blows my mind. Going to buy a couple copies..... Photos: Matthew McMullen Smith (just keeps getting better...)