Matt bought his Bunring Man Ticket!

Matt called me and told me that he bought his Burning Man ticket this morning.... "Whooooo! Matt! You're fucking coming to Burning Man! How are you getting there?" "Ummmm, don't know - I didn't think that far." Ha. I would not expect any more nor any less from him.... after looking up outrageously priced last-minute airline tickets and bus tickets for about an hour over the phone together, looks Matt has lined up a ride with Burner out of NY - He will be arriving on the playa Tuesday evening to grab his ticket at the Will Call booth.... whooo! Matt is coming to Black Rock!

We have no room in the camper, but we are now going to pack a tent and an airmattress ..... it will be just like last year - a tent, a sand storm, an airmattress... cookin in the mornin-times... I look forward to it completely... whooo!

Home for the Day...

First off! Announcement!: Tracy has chosen her official modeling name: Cora Lee Austin!!! *clap clap clap* Cheers to the new name!! From now on, I shall try my best to refer to her as Cora (although if this weekend amounts to anything, it is obvious that I suck at remembering her name).... So I shall write this blog and practice.... Cora Cora Cora

500 flights in and out of Tampa Airport, 100 of them canceled due to a tropical storm, so many more delayed - Just our luck, waking up on that cloudy Tuesday morning to find both of our flights canceled. It all worked out though, Cora and I did eventually get out of Tampa..... with the help of the airlines, we managed to arrange some earlier flights back home... Right now, I am sitting with my cat - torn between taking a shower or finding some kind of edible food in the house...


Now begins Thee Large Block of Writing:


FetCon was a really good time - So jam packed with 'things', that I am unsure what to concentrate on. Thursday night Cora and I dressed up, attended the Meet and Greet. Met a bunch of people that I did not know, ran into a bunch of friends from all over the US that I have not seen in years - Dave was there with a bunch of his girls.... got my picture taken with a nice guy who reads the blog. Cora and I did dinner with Richard right afterwards - which was then followed by the ultimate party in the pool, totally attacked by a million pretty people that I love and have not seen in forever...

,,,,,,,,,,Friday I grabbed lunch with Glenn and his wife up in Ybor City. Spent the evening getting dressed up in Military Garb for the sponsored party - and I must say, my outfit was fucking killer (The tweety-bird undies only added to it's awesomeness.. ha!)....

....... Saturday I shot with Lone Star Damsels from Dallas, Dave is a really great friend and always a pleasure to work with - shot for about six hours, in which I got to work with Angelique Kithos, Delilah B, Kimberly Marvel, Mallory, JJ Plush, and a few other girls.... (Dave likes to tie up tons of pretty girls at once)... Grabbed dinner with Cora, Kimberly, her gorgeous boyfriend that I have trouble not trying to touch, Jackie, Mallory, and of course, Dave..... ran into Samantha, Vivian Irene Pierce and her man at that same place.... we all hung out, watched Michael Phelps win the last gold medal for the US team - the place went wild, I bought some shots, Dave gave me a cigar. Got back to hotel and some girl asked me if she could suck on my nipples... so I let her. Cora retired for the evening because it was a hell of a long day, I meandered down to the pool - hung out with Savannah and a bunch of other girls.... Savannah challenged Angelique to a nipple sucking contest (twice in the same night without any prompts?) Savannah won.... tried to go back to my room round 3am, ran into a drag queen on the elevator who offered me makeup remover and beer.... spent some time in his/her room talking about wigs and how dressing like a girl does not mean that you are gay.... I agree completely. Sunday I laid in bed for hours - I was just laid flat by the night before. Tracy and I went shopping in Ybor in the afternoon - grabbed lunch - watched some live music by this beautiful dreaded god.... crazy mix up with our room when we got back.... Managed dinner and curled up in our beds and went to sleep..... Monday was wrestling with Bouttime and Tuesday was Drowning in the pool for two hours....

... And now, here I am back in NY....

Goal for today: Costumes, packing, cashing checks and making some money for Burning Man

Tomorrow afternoon I fly out for Phoenix Arizona, where I will meet up with Cora - Her boyfriend managed to find a decent little trailer to pull up to Black Rock for the week, so we will actually have air conditioning on the playa and we will not have to sleep in two inches of dust - We can even cook! Drive from Tucson, AZ to Gerlach, NV will be between fifteen and twenty hours, might stop in Vegas to kill some drive time. Michael Helms is attending the burn, Nevaehlieh as well....

Photo Credit: Lone Star Damsels...

Model Moments - 2008

FetishCon 2008

I have been trying to write this blog for the last hour and half...... but it is impossible. I am at a photographer's house, Tracy is shooting underwater stuff in the pool and his kids just want to gab about boys and cell phones.... anytime I look at the screen for more than 30 seconds - they want my attention..... arggggg....

Biggest news: Tropical Storm hits Tampa tomorrow, how big or small depends on the warm water around Southern FL.... Hope the storm slows down a bit more... Tracy and I fly out between 3-6pm....

Cape Cod - Eastham

There is no wi-fi in the family vacation house. Guess it does not matter much, since currently I am not booking any work. My hair is wet. Stewie Hues cd is on repeat, with Gillian Welch singing her Nashville Blues. Blue bed, t-shirt sheets, soft box lighting from bay windows. Marley and Me was a failed attempt, at first I thought it was just the fact that they author wrote and entire novel based on his beloved golden retriever, Marley - but then I realized, that the writing was also dry, boring, and hard to follow - so Marley and Me has officially been casted aside, to join the very few books that I shall never finish...

My new read: Pillars of the Earth. Much better novel

Kiss family vacation goodbye....

Spent most of the week either riding the bike trails from Eastham to Wellfleet or I would find myself a nice spot on the beach, set up camp, break out the book. Occasionally, a few of my little cousins would come over, poke me, and with little up turned faces, beg that I catch some crabs with them. No matter how old you get - catching crabs on the cape is always good fun. Crabs have ninja skills, and bury deep under the sand lying in wait for you to step over them.... as you walk over, they jump out and attach themselves to your toes....

Tracy leaves for Poo-kip-see...

Dropped Tracy off at the train station this morning. So weird to see someone that I have spent so much time with, eat a bagel, hop a train, gone with the wind. I am sure it is just seperation anxiety, not as though I will not be seeing her in less than a week at the Con - it is just so strange being so close to someone and watching them leave your life so quickly - I am all lonely and stuff....

Sure all this lonliness ties into my recent Cleveland trip as well.... All of me craves to be with him, around him, near him - but flipside, I want nothing to do with him right now.. I will continue to believe that someday we will end up together - that things will work out - I want them to.... but for the time being, our lives are really seperate right now and I need them to be that way....

Actually writing this entry from the backseat of my family's car. We are driving out to Cape Cod for a week to celebrate family vacation... this is an annual event, where my mom's side of the family gets together and they rent out a giant house that will fit 40 people... we hold lots of clambakes and volleyball tournaments. Always a good time... the only downside is that I am not allowed to talk about my job, so that cuts off a giant portion of my conversation and my life - I feel handicapped. I talk about the weather, the color of the bathrooms, the shape that the bugs make in the dirt as they crawl across the back porch - feels so senseless....

Figure this week I will concentrate on catching up with my book list... the past few months of driving, working, and sight-seeing has really eaten my personal time for saturating myself in well written words.... First book on the list Marley and Me.

Detroit: DEAC

As usual, Detroit turned out to be nothing more but a giant black-hole for photography. If Dr Seuss could say anything about this particular part of Michigan - it would be, " (Dear Detroit), your soul is an apalling dump heap overflowing with the most disgraceful assortment of deplorable rubbish imaginable, Mangled up in tangled up knots.....You nauseate me (Detroit)." It is this creative deficit which can only be found here on lake Erie, that led me to nuke Michigan off my roadtrip at beginning of my roadtrip - who knew that I would be back, eh?

Ok, so Michigan is not that bad.... while I had two cancellations out of three, and the third guy spent his entire shoot attempting to get crotch shots of Tracy's cooch.... the DEAC turned out to be a really good time. Completely made up for the creative-void that is Detroit.

Saturday night, Tracy and I got all super sexy - fetished out (or so we thought)... went to check out X-Ball. We followed a few people in who were fully dressed in latex-diving suits and realized... that fetish-wise....we completely under-dressed. We left early and went to party at the Marriott hotel with a bunch of photographer's and models. Got to meet Timothy Nolan - he says that I am the first girl he has ever fallen for at first sight. I think he is incredibly adorable.... spent most of the night kicking back at the hotel. I think there were over fifteen people in the room at one point - jumping around on the beds, throwing eachother around.... My buddy Larry Bradby, from DC showed up... totally wasted and all the girls started spanking him ... ha, it was funny.... I seriously love Larry. I hope he is coming to the FetCon, he will only add to the chaos that will soon ensue.... ha.

Next morning Tracy and I did the DEAC shoot at the Museum of New Art in downtown Pontiac.... Since my portfolio is already decent....at events such as this, I try to stay away from working. Spend most of my time meeting new people and catching up on photography stories.... So I buzzed around and Tracy worked with a handful of talented types - that will hopefully get her some good images.... Around 3pm, Timothy, Larry, Tracy and I all took off for a short break - I wanted to sit next to Timothy... but ended up next to Larry, which is cool - Larry is my man... he is my myth.... he is all about the hair. : )

I get home in two days!! I get to see my cat in two more days!! : ) Yay Little Kitty!!

Dirty Laundry.....

Names and scenarios have been changed to protect the innocent: A few days ago I worked with a model that I had always wanted to meet - The photographer who hired us had a very particular shot in mind, it involved both the model and I caressing each other's faces and staring deeply into one another's eyes..... The set was perfect, our hair was perfect, the shot was beautifully lit.... and she leaned in for the shot, put her hands to my face...... and I swear, I almost puked. Her hands reeked of poop.... I mean, reeked! Twas like this gorgeous siren had just scratched her swampy butt crack and then thought it would be sexy to let me smell them. Ugh, it was so gross. Tracy and I have dubbed her as, "Poop Fingers" for all eternity... 

Detroit Erotic Art Collaborative Ball is tonight. Tracy and I never bought tickets but plan on going anyways - should be a good party.... Detroit, Toledo, Cleveland, Syracuse in the next week. Roadtrip is just about over.... I should feel nostalgic but I am actually quite looking forward to it.... Photos Credit: M Martinez and S Melvin

Returning to Black Rock City!!!

HELL YES!! Burning - fucking - Man!! Back to the desert!! Back to the best party, the best community, the best people, the best music, the best art, the best creative energy that can be found anywhere - and I mean anywhere...... The sandstorms, the pretty lights, the costumes. I was really unsure as to if I would be able to return to Burning Man this year... mostly because no one that I know can afford tickets and I realized that partying by myself is really quite dangerous (I am too curious for my own good sometimes)..... Tracy talked me into going again. Both her and her boyfriend purchased tickets to attend and we are carpooling from Tucson!!!! HELL YES!! .. So ecstatic and elated and excited and... just wow... you know? Black Rock City in late August.

BURNING MAN!!!!

I am hoping with all the hope that I have, that I can find someone that I know that is going to have an RV..... I invited Jason from Manitoba - figured since he is a party-type and all super guy-ish - he would be able to find an RV somewhere and come out to party with me, but not sure if he can make it.... might contact Grin from last year, see if he can set up camp near us, so we can crash in his RV during the day and nap.... he was the man. He made bloody marys and breakfast for me every single morning that I was there. He looked like Tom Petty - great neighborly neighbor..... and then there is Ethan from Berkley that I met at Harbin in CA... have to meet up with him as well, he made me happy.... And Kristine! Baby, are you coming!? You have to send me an email... I know you read this.

So much to think about! The theme is The American Dream this year - I expect the playa to be littered with both beautiful art from the 50's and really creepy art sculptures of what our twisted demented idea of the American Dream is these days.... I need to find costumes. Might dress up as a 50's mom and travel around handing out homemade cookies.... : ) ...... or I could do an American Flag made out of monopoly money and wear it as a toga? Ha....

Anyways, this only adds to the chaos which is already August for me.... I have the Detroit Erotic Art Ball this weekend, Family Vacation in the Cape, FetCon in two weeks, maybe a power modeling trip to make some serious cash in DC or NYC, and then flying into Tucson to drive up to the Man with Tracy and Brandon for a week, and finally flying back to plan a Canadian Trip to Nova Scotia and all that good stuff..... busy busy busy bee, eh?

Photo Credit: Google Maps! A guy at the Man who took my email addy! Snapshot! Stephan Melvin... in all his glory.