The Renaissance....

"So, what kind of photography do you shoot?" 

"Me? Renaissance.... most of my photography resembles paintings from the Renaissance - old, delicate. I paint with light - ... love the richness of that era....." 

"Wow, that is awesome, that time period was beautiful...." *drops robe* ".. lets shoot!!" 

"Yes! Lets do that! Now.... I want you to go over there and put your boob on the table. Yea. Now put your boob on the chair, now the bed post... yea, that is just great!"

Just like the Renaissance 

Pin-Up Event... SlyHorse Studios!!

Right now I am in Fredericksburg Virginia.... All three of my shoots canceled for this afternoon - Although cancellations always suck..... I am really excited for the freetime - Spent the morning running errands. Sending off the E-bay stuff, car washin, oil changin, deposits for the bank, laundry, cleaned out the front seat of my car - which was starting to smell like a really funky-nasty-armpit? I did not touch it, kicked all the garbage out of the car with my foot....

Everything wraps up, right? A bunch of people go to the restaurant around the corner - Get back to the studio to sleep, 2:30 am - and I hear a *rap rap rappin* on the door. A model and her photographer friend had car trouble. So here we are in a studio - sleeping under softboxes and alien bees....  my airbed, a clitoris shaped couch thing for the model and a blow up piece of cheese (for the photographer).

Retiring..... A Way of Life

So I took a break on writing - mostly because I feel like my drive has been lost....to model, to travel, to book jobs, to stay so busy all the time. Was talking to Kerri Taylor today on MM and she mentioned about how she is tired of modeling......I am starting to feel that way too? .. Tonight I mentioned to a photographer that I might retire this year......, "Looks like you've smartened up," he said...... Which kind of took me back. Do photographers think that modeling is not a good career choice?

..... I wonder if the feeling comes and goes?...... if it sticks?.... or if we'll go out and do something new? Who knows, maybe Kerri will quit next year and maybe I will go to school and get a waitress job somewhere..... Some days though, I wake up and I'm just so excited to go work - Like today! Shot in a giant warehouse against all these beautiful murals, with a space heater, some good coffee, and good company ..... climbed up on a roof, stopped the construction across the street..... it was fun. Tonight I am sleeping at Slyhorse Studios and they are having a pin-up event tomorrow evening, which I am going to be a part of... I miss Matthew, it has got me in a funk..... traveling alone is not all that much fun..... it is like you do a million awesome things, but there is no one to share it with.

Round round get around..... 2nd time around...

This is my new schedule for this year. I am going back on the road on Thursday morning - Destination: DC.... This time around, I am going to all the cities that I missed, Savannah (Ever read the book: Midnight in the Garden of Good and Evil.... always wanted to go there after reading it), Key West, Memphis, Little Rock, Tulsa, Oklahoma City, Fresno, Seattle, all of Canada, Fargo, Minneapolis, Kansas City, and all the National Parks in between.... even Jasper up near Edmonton.

Wife Shoot

Recently, a photographer hired me and he told me that I would be posing with another model. The model turned out to be his wife. She was 71 years old. Not that age matters (it does not) but lets just say that it was weird situation to walk into - Posing with someone's significant other *absolutely* should be discussed prior to shooting. My limits as a model are very straight forward. I pose naked but I do not pose sexually. But he kept pushing my limits, "Pretend to kiss, girls. Closer. Open your mouths. Closer." - I had to repeatedly tell him, "No" - These are the sort of shoots that make me nervous. The shoots where I walk in and I have no idea what is going to happen. Do I take a chance and make $300? Or do I walk away from my paycheck saying, "No thank you. This is not what we discussed prior and I do not feel safe here?"

Back at it.....

I spent the weekend shooting ridiculous clips with a friend - sitting on balloons, blow drying my hair, drinking water, smushing little people under my stilettos, working on vampire foot fetish..... it is always a goodtime, hanging out with people who's lives are just as strange as your own. No one asks questions - you just film things.

Back on the road, kind of unwillingly. This will be my second roadtrip and getting ready for it, did not feel quite as magical as the first time. But here we go AGAIN.

I am Harrisburg, PA!!! ... Motel 6-in it. Just finished working with Mr. Timothy Lantz tonight - that guy is a like a walking tarot card designer. Before my modeling days, I used to follow his work on DeviantArt... Shot some pinup work with Frank DeBlase the other night on a bear skin rug..... I just wanted to mention how people shoot bears..... to have sex on bears... in front of fireplaces? What is that? What other mammals do that? I just picture this grizzly in the wild, catching fish in some distant river and some random nudist couple spread eagle over the top of them. Humans are weird.